Focusing on the positive is sometimes a hard thing to do. Seeing the good in every situation is equally as hard. Today I was pretty grouchy and pretty short tempered with my kids. As I sit and reflect on my day I began to feel guilt for all the yelling I did. The pregnancy hormones were in full force today and I am not one to "blame" my reactions on "something" but in this case it is the honest truth. It's as though I was having an out-of-body experience as I snapped at everyone. I have since asked for forgiveness however the guilt is still there.

I am reminded of how patient the Lord is with me. How he knows what I will do before I even make the decision to do it. And He stands by me and allows me to make that wrong decision so I can learn some kind of lesson through the experience. He never yells at me. He never fails me. He loves me regardless of my faults. I don't deserve his forgiveness but I am so glad it's there.

That is the positive I am seeking in my "Mr.Grumpy Gills" kinda day. It is a reminder of the love I receive from Christ to pass along to my children even when they "don't deserve it".

I love the song by Matt Redman:You Never Let Go.

It's only past due about 5 years....

I feel like I'm the only one alive, let alone as a Realtor, who hasn't been blogging. The social media etiquette for blogging is so personalized that I believe fear has stopped me from starting this process. Plus, when do people find the time to blog!! Although when I stop to think about this process it's really journaling. Except you are reading my journal with my permission. WEIRD!

When I was little I remember having a diary with a little padlock and tiny key and it felt so important to me that no one could read my thoughts without that key. And here I am years later giving that key to the world.

There has been so much on my mind lately about my world I live in. How I take so much for granted. I feel like I have never wanted to give back more in my life than now. I think one of those things I really cherish is my family. How fortunate I am to have loving parents who are my biggest cheerleaders. A husband who wants nothing but the absolute best for me and our (almost) 5 children-our newest addition will be here on August 2nd. I live in a wonderful community and have wonderful friends. There just isn't enough things I can say about the blessings of love I have been given.

I found a prayer today that I sent to someone who is going through a very difficult time in her life and it touched my heart. It reads:
"Do not look forward to what may happen tomorrow; the same everlasting Father who cares
for you today will take care of you tomorrow and every day. Either He will shield you from suffering,
or He will give you unfailing strength to bear it. Be at peace, then. Put aside all anxious thoughts and
imaginations, and say continually: "The Lord is my strength and my shield. My heart has trusted in Him
and I am helped. He is not only with me but in me, and I in Him."

Why do we worry? The Lord is taking care of us through the good times and the challenges! We need to praise Him in all things my friends!